All We Are Is Bullets Part 1

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All We Are Is Bullets Part 1

Just a little background info: this is the first fan-fic I've wrote that actually has something to do with the band. I had this idea Way before the break-up so it was originally gonna start in the MCR5 era and look back on Bullets but I had to change it to Danger Days, either way I love this story so I hope you guys like it!

I felt a pang of envy as I watched all the kids with colourful hair and band merch babble excitedly about seeing their hero’s live. I strolled through the crowds aimlessly feeling both proud yet spiteful of the band, a part of me wishing to turn back time and take the chance when I had it. That part of me constantly had to be reminded that I made the right decision all those years ago, it would have been selfish of me to hold on. After watching them grow and seeing the difference the mad I knew I did the right thing. So I kept walking through the crowds, deep in thought, going wherever my feet led me.
I later found myself staring at a magazine cover in a shop, the faces of the guys I’d once known were staring back at me. I couldn’t help but smile when I saw how happy they all looked. So I decided to buy it, in line I noticed a little girl, who looked no older than 4 years old jumping around eagerly. I smiled politely when she looked up at me but something struck me. Those eyes. I’d seen those eyes before. I quickly looked down at the magazine I was holding, it couldn’t be, could it? I looked at the women beside her; dark hair, pig tails, tattoo’s. Why didn’t I see it before? The pang of envy hit me again but quickly subsided when I looked back at the kid.
Before I knew it I’d already tapped the woman’s shoulder, “Excuse me, are you Lindsey Way?” I asked. She turned around “Yes I am” she answered her scarlet lips breaking into a smile. It suddenly hit me that I had no idea what to say, “I... um...” I began, “I knew My Chem way back when they started” I went on, “I can’t believe they’ve come so far.”. “I know” she agreed, “Are you going to the show tonight?”. I shook my head, “I could get you tickets” she offered. I wanted to say “Hell Yes!” and ask for a back stage pass too, they’d all get a shock if I strolled in after 10 years but I looked down at Gerard daughter, Bandit, I was right with what I told him back then and if I came back into the picture I could potentially ruin everything.
Despite the jealously and missing them what I mostly felt was pride, and I could see why he married Lindsey. He was happy like I knew he would be, as were the rest of the guys. “No it’s okay, I have to go somewhere” I lied, she frowned “That’s a shame, I’m sure they’d like to see a fan from back in the day again”. She looked down at her watch, “I’m sorry but I really have to go, I didn’t catch your name” she said as she took Bandits hand, “its Julia” I replied “and thanks for the offer, it was nice meeting you”. And then she was gone.
Later I found myself strolling through the parking lot of the concert venue. I could hear the fans screaming already. I smiled to myself thinking about the first time I saw a little band called My Chemical Romance in a crappy club in Jersey and here they were 10 years later playing sold out arenas. They’d changed so much but a lot stayed the same. I so desperately wanted to see them, for old time’s sake but couldn’t risk them seeing me. I could hear the screams getting louder, my heart tightened. Even from outside the venue I could hear everything crystal clear, after one deafening scream I finally heard “Look Alive Sunshine....”