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on November 22, 2014 - 6:09am

It's been a really long time since i wrote here. I read my blogs and i'm so ashamed of myself. How stupid i was.A lot things happened. And this is that time in my life when i want to runaway. I've done something really bad. I hurt so many people during past few months. Uncountable amount.Today im really down. Sitting in front of open books, physics still waiting. I have no power to do any of this stuff. Im so confused. Even though that my best friend is always beside me (yes it's still THAT FRIEND) i'm getting more and more uncertain.I used to be good girl, who is wisely thinking and who is aware of actions. I used to be able to take responsibilty and not causing problems and fights.What happened to me? Why am i so weak right now? I am frightened of what people will think about me.I thought that i dont care about their opinion but everything came back. My fear of being rejected-yes i think that this is the biggest problem. I've done cruel things to people who didn't deserve that. Of course now im regreting but why i didnt think about consequences first?????