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Maybe found dog???

on November 21, 2017 - 1:24pm

heyoo!
I have news.
I think we may have found a dog to train as a service dog! His name is Jack. He's 10 months old. He's an Australian Shepard. We talked to his breeder and she had really good things to say about him and he's already been to some obedience classes. If Jack works out, all we'd have to do left is register him, get his vest and an "in training" patch, and find a specialized trainer. I'm excited. I think a dog like this would really help me.
More good news, I only noticed dissociating less than 4 times in the past 5 days or so!!! It really fluctuates but this week has been ok.

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update

on November 20, 2017 - 5:48am

heyooo!
i guess there will be two posts in a row from me cause you guys gotta pick up the pace! if this were i posting competition id totally be kicking your asses.
puppy update: Spencer's mountain emailed us back. they're exclusively an aussie breeder.they said they have a litter due around december 2nd! and they do do screenings for genetic mutations and all the weird eye problems Australian shepherds can get. like having no eyes, cataracts, or missing part of the pupil.

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what i know and what i dont

on November 19, 2017 - 11:34am

i know i am in my room
i know i am z
i know its killjoys anniversary
i dont know whos lying next to me
i know it's dylan but im confused
im confused because i don't know who it is
i know where i am but i dont really
i know im not dissociating
i think im floating, not present
i want to hit something to know its real

xoxoz

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dog names and christmas shopping

on November 19, 2017 - 3:38am

Hey everyone! So glad to see a bit more activity on here, every single post counts!
Exciting news, we're looking at Australian shepherd puppies to train as my service dog!!!!!!!!! I've never seen a puppy in real life. and Ive always had aussies. i think it would be a really good fit for my disability too. can you guys help me think of names? i want it to be a kinda funny name. but also cute. and not like a generic dog name.
I've done most of my xmas shopping. I got....
my brother some comic books
my mom a bath robe
my dad a vest (making it from scratch) and a frog tape despencer
my aunt

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just making up for all the lack of posting

on November 16, 2017 - 9:34am

hey guys
it's awfully quiet here! lets liven things up a bit!
let's see... what's up in my life.....
Well, I might get a PTSD/anxiety service dog! Might. it's HELLA expensive (>$10,000). And takes a year or two to train and find the dog. but it would really help with my dissociations and everything. I have a phone interview with the organization I'm looking into in 11 days.
Today is a busy day. I had psych class. We talked about learning new behaviors and things of that sort. Quiz on Tuesday. I got extra credit HW, that will help my grades.I have therapy in 1.5 hours.

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Thursday November 09, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

sorry i was gone for a while. i was doing very bad but i turned it around :)

no class today, professor canceled.

have my doctors appointments today.

sorry if this is a boring blog. things are pretty boring right now.

xoxoz

Thursday October 26, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

time for bed? more like time to download all the disney movie soundtracks and try to do my psych home work
xoxoz

Wednesday October 25, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Have you ever seen new England in the fall? The leaves bright colors. I like driving by fast and seeing the blur of reds, orange, pink and yellow. It's really cool. We're on our way to mass moca ,  a really cool art museum.
Hope you guys are well. I'm glad I have not much going on except this museum trip with dad and his friends.
That's all with now. Shit is kinda boring.
Got my orange boots on, ripped black jeans, yellow "jeasus was was wrong" shirt, skill bandanna around my neck and old leather jacket.
Why did i write what I'm wearing? Cause I fucking felt like it.
Xoxoz

Monday October 23, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

life is too clean and i cant fucking stand it i want everything to be dirty and messy and chaotic maybe i've been listening to too much black flag and shit but i feel maddened. i need to make shit dirtier but dont know how fuck maybe ill spray paint some shit that helps usually or make art thats good too
class in half an hour
xoxoz

Thursday October 19, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

a crackhouse without the crack
a commune
the streets (by choice)
a field of straw or hay
between a pair of breasts
in a barn i'm squatting in illegally
a music shop
my car
a dumpster
my best friend's house
in a good graphic novel
hogwarts
my own womb
a spider web (i'd be the spider)
tara (gone with the wind)
a freight train going who knows where
a shitty apartment

xoxoz

Wednesday October 18, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

reading funny journial entries from a few years back. ive been journialing since i was 11 and im 19 now.

march 8, 2015
(please note we were 100% sober)
didn't write about girls night yesterday. we went to nick's pizza. (redacted name) and i peed in a walgreen's parking lot, behind a dumpster. we went to sudburry farms. (redacted name) and I rode in those kiddie carts where there's a police car built into the front end of the cart for kinds to play in. I fit nicely. Fun times :)

3/14/2012 (13 years old)
hopes and dreams lsit: get (recdacted name) to be my friend again. get a girl friend. have 3 kids. finish a fanfic. dye hair a lot. quit clarinet. watch nyan cat for an hour straight. go to cologe (that is how i spelt it, folks).never say anything mean to anyone. try exotic dancing. get good at exotic dancing. boobs reach at least a c cup. wear super slut outfit for a day. fuck a chick. get money for sex. figure out if im straight les or bi. never be popular.

Conufuzzlement list (things i'm confused by)
liking girls. why is straight the default. why is (redacted) pissed. how do i study. why is teenagerhood so hard. elyssa <3. how to tell if someone is gay. getting a girl friend. who to trust. looking hot. big boobs. spontaneous combustion. handwriting. slut.

I;m not really sure what any of it means but i thought it was pretty funny haha

xoxoz