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daily highlights!

weddings, boyfriend on vacation, low on money and overalls

daily highlights!

weddings, boyfriend on vacation, low on money and overalls

I'm tierd but good day

hair cut and first day of classes

graduations, college and more!

woah I haven't been online since may. a lot has happened since then. Well, not a lot. but some pretty big events.

First off, This site is all but dead! We need to pump some life back into it, guys! I'll admit, I haven't been the most present. Not just on this site, but with MCR in general. I gave away my MCR tees. I don't remember the last time I even listened to them. But this fandom remains my family. The friends I made on here in the beginning have stuck with me to the end.

On to the life events!

For one thing I graduated High School. Yay!

let's talk about mania

just watched a youtube video about manic episodes and its nothing like mine are. theirs was about being restless and productive. mine's very different from that. I wrote a list of ways to tell that I'm having a manic episode. they usally only last less than a day but i recetly was manic for a week when my meds were off. even if it's not the typical mania/hypo-mania, I still have the diagnosis. It's still valid. this is the video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuA7HqhZW-4&t=315s

Hyper activity
Laughing uncontrollably
Moving fast
Unsafe ideas/actions
Crying
Screaming
hand tremor
Extra creative

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Monday May 01, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

I don't feel like writing a blog. so I'll just do a list of thoughts and occurrences from the day.

why did i just spend an hour watching scene kids do makeup
only five days left of partial
got hair bleach
maybe i'll wear a skirt tomorrow
or maybe not
i think i'll do neon makeup tomorrow. that would be fun.
school on monday for the first time ion ~2 months. yikes.
made a few bracelets today
i don't know how i feel right now
i never know how i feel
i wish i didn't dissociate so much
my dog is really great
i want more dogs
those videos made me want to be a scene kid again. yikes
i'm glad i'm not scene anymore. those days were dark
started reading my immortal. oh boy.
gonna start saving my blogs cause what if they delete this page :'(
i have too much anxiety
i want to make a hat for the homeless man by my program. today he told me he was cold
i like that homeless man
it's 11:35 pm
i need to shower tomorrow and get up @6
good night
never mind i might read fanfiction first
or not

- Z

Wednesday April 26, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

hey everyone who's still online!
I just wanted to share my new favorite music genre - folk punk! it's like acoustic angry punk with harmonics and guitars and stuff. The lyrics are primarily about drug addiction, alcoholism, being homeless, and society. Really about making the best of a bad situation. Drugs are bad, kids. But if you're already into it, might as well sing about it, right?
these are the songs I made in a mix CD for my friend called "this is: Folk punk":

Timeline - Apes of the State
House On Wheels - Ghost Mice
I Listened - Apes of the State
Acid Song - Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains
Hopeful/Scared - She/Her/Hers
Eulogy for and Adolescence Shattered Against Elliot Street Pavement - Ramshackle Glory
Urine Speaks Louder than Words - Wingnut Dishwasher's Union
Spilt Beer - Days N Daze
A Glorious Shipwreck - Pat The Bunny
Hi, Anxiety - Dollar Signs
I Love You - Andrew Jackson Jihad
Your Heart Is A Muscle The Size Of Your Fist - Ramshackle Glory

You guys should look up some of those bands on bandcamp as they aren't on youtube, spotify or itunes for the most part. On bandcamp you can download one of their albums for about $5 or free. And since the bands upload it for free themselves, it's entirely legal.
In the partial program at CEDC now. was at residential for five weeks too long. I don't even have an eating disorder any more.
still talk to killjoysneverdie, blood'yrevenge, sidtastic007, occasionally flightrisk. but not as much as I'd like to.
sized up my left ear hole (all my ear holes are different sizes)! Now it's the size 1/2 inch. have a neon yellow sillicon tunnel in.
tomorrow i have program, therapy, and a meeting with my nutritionist.
friday i have program, a party at my boyfriend's friend's house and a sleepover with my boyfriend
and then saturday I get to miss program and go to my last tattoo appt!
sounds like a good weekend to me. and prom is in about three weeks!
only 10:00 but I'm done. going to BED
love you all
xoxoZ

Monday March 27, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Hey
The site is so quiet. The MCR kid group chats are so quiet. I'm worried for our community.
There's not as much drama here as there was when I first got here. Still no idea when I'll be able to leave. I've officially been here two weeks as of today.
I'm really worried about hearing back from Framingham State University. If I don't get in, I'll have to take a gap year. And I think I'd rather be at FSU. I want to study art. I don't think I'm actually that good. But it's what I want to do and I believe I can get better at it.
One girls crying a lot. I feel bad.
Xoxoz

Sunday March 26, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Hey everyone!
Yesterday was my four year anniversary of signing up for this site. I couldn't blog yesterday because my phone was being weird.
Still not sure when I'll get out of treatment.
I'm bored
Been playing MCR on guitar
Love you guys!
XoxoZ

Wednesday March 22, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Hey lovelies
I'm in residential (again) and I haven't posted in ages. I thought the four year anniversary of the split would be a good time to come back.
We're watching high School musical two now.
I miss MCR. I miss my friends I've met in this site because its hard to get in touch with them since I have limited tech time and therefore it's hard to reach them and fit their time zones.
We listened to Danger Days in the group room today. That was nice. And another kid and myself wore MCR shirts. I'm not as obsessed with chem but I still love them and am greatful​ for all they have done for me.
On a separate note, I'm reading unholyverse and I finished the first one. It's really good!
We don't know when I'll get out but I'll try to blog more while I'm here and after I get back.
Dylan is visiting tomorrow :) excited to see him!
Xoxoz

Wednesday January 18, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Hey my dudes!
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. There's been school and college apps. Thought I'd give some updates on what's going on.
I think I'm getting discharged from the eating disorder clinic today or tomorrow! it's been 10 months of treatment and I'm really proud that, even though I'm still struggling, I've made it this far.
I didn't get accepted to Mass Art :/ I applied to a lot of other schools but that was my first choice. I also applied to framingham state, curry, lesley, Massachusetts college of liberal arts, university of northern iowa, and upper iowa university. I also might take a gap year. try to move out and get an internship at planned parenthood. Regardless, I do want to move out.
at lunch right now.
How are you guys? I've missed you all!
It's coming up to my two year anniversary of being active on this website!
anyways, that's about it
xoxoZ