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on January 9, 2017 - 8:25am

hey guys
a lot has been going on, Ill update you when i'm not in english class. :P
love you

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back at school

on December 7, 2016 - 8:39am

back at school - out of partial. eating lunch
i fucking hate lunch
i feel like im gonna cry i cant do it i cant i cant i cant
i have grapes and a sparkling blood orange drink and a chicken sandwich and a bananna and i dont think i can do all of it so I'll end up back in partial and wont graduate so i cant go to college

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on November 11, 2016 - 7:28am

we're doing a puzzle of 60s rock and it's a really good puzzle 1000 pieces wish me luck!
Also if I'm able to eat 100% today and tomorrow, I get to go on pass tomorrow! that means I go home for about four hours, try a meal, hang out, then come back to program. I'll probably be here until some time next week. I'm supposed to be here for longer but insurance won't cover longer than next week.I love insurance for covering what they do cover but I wish they'd cover my full stay. the plan was for me to be here until I reach a pound over my healthy weight.

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club penguin mcr clut?

on November 9, 2016 - 12:18pm

hey guys
so on club penguin theres a group of users called the pookies. pookies are normal penguins who are yellow, hang out at the pet shop and pretend to be babies.
and they inspired me
what if everyone who comes on this site makes a Club Penguin and we make an emo group on there like the pookies, but cool!
friend me on CP, i'm emolordmcr cause we'll make this work.

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In resi... again

on November 8, 2016 - 12:19pm

Hey guys
I'm at resi. again. third time in resi. But whatever. I knew I'd end up here, I was doing so bad. As of today, I;ve been here for a week.
Applying to art schools now. It's the first thing that's ever gotten me excited for college, the potential of doing art for life. So I'll go with it :)
I can't blog much right now, because the program's desktop computer is broken :( but I can blog from my personal computer during the two hour school block if I finish all my work.
My parents and I have made a deal. If I eat ALL my food for a whole day, I earn prizes. These prizes include:
- getting



Monday September 05, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

hey guys
Still in resi but dad expects I'll be out by the end of the week. I've been pretty meal compliant so I'm sure he's right
Good news - 9 days until my 18th birthday. 12 days until I get my 3/4 sleeve tattoo!
Mom's visiting me today.
I have to do my SAT practice test but it's so hard to focus... Especially on the reading section.
Group now.

Wednesday August 31, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Going back to residential care tomorrow or Friday.
Really upset at myself for having to go back.
I got through resi, partial, and only had two more days of IOP before discharge. And now I'm going back to the beginning. My clinition said I can pick up where I left of though, so that's good. And he says he expects it'll be shorter than my last stay (3.5 weeks) and the staff there are really nice. But I really wish I didn't have to go...
I'll try to blog but I can't make any promises

Tuesday August 30, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

I love you guys <3
Trying to get it back into my scededucal to post and comment every day.
15 days until my 18th Birthday
17 days 19 hours until I get my tattoo
I REALLY hope I get money for my birthday so I can get my bridge piercing and spider bites (different from snake bites)
That's all for now.

Monday August 29, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Today was the fist day of my last year of high school!
I drove into school for the first time on my own which was quite fun. Got there on time. Said hello to my friends and began welcoming new kids. There were pancakes in the commons (what we call the cafeteria/kitchen).
Then we had an all school community meeting. Jon gave a speech about how our school is a community. The principal, David, read a haiku (he always does, every weekly meeting. It's pretty annoying). Then we played an all school game of The West Wind Blows (mind you, we only currently have about 45 students) and then it was off to class.
First class was Algebra II with Paul. There's 14 fucking kids in that class! it's huge! We had to have a milieu councilor sit in because 8 is the max in a class so we need extra staff in the room. Paul is all distracted all the time and talks too much. But he let me lay on the floor and sit on the desk so that was nice :)
Then I had foundations of english 1 with Becca. I like Becca. She had us decorate paper with our name and some characteristics about ourselves. My friend Sierra is in that class so that's nice.
Afterwards was lunch... I wasn't able to eat any lunch so that ended up poorly during program (after school) but I did get a nice nap in during lunch.
Then was foundations of history with Becca. I'm glad Becca is my teacher instead of Leigh. I don't like leigh. We decorated our binders and listened to music.
Next was study. I was SO amped up with energy. David (principal) took me outside to do laps to burn some of it off. That helped a lot.
Then I had music performance with Jon. I usually play bass in that class but this term I'm playing guitar :) Bri and Frannie are in this class with me so that's good.
Afterwards I drove to program. My clinition was worried because I lost 2 pounds. My favorite staff, Avi, isn't working on the days I'm going to program anymore, which is sad. But I have his email so I can send him updates on how I'm doing. I'm gonna be discharged in 3 weeks! isn't that crazy? I started Walden Behavioral Care on April 25th, that's nearly 5 months of being in this program. It's gonna be weird to leave, and I know my eating disorder won't be entirely gone. But I've come a long way and I'm happy with myself for that.
hope you all are well

Saturday August 27, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

hey guys
so I don't shave my legs or my armpits. My armpit hair has been getting long (about 1.25 inches long) so today I bleached my armpit hair, which didn't hurt at all (surprisingly), and dyed it Manic Panic's atomic turquoise! I love it so much, not shaving is considered unconventional and I just unconventiolized my unconventional :)
And I'll try to make this quick, but I just wanted to mention why I don't shave. There's many reasons so I will compose a list
- shaving takes time and is annoying
- guys don't shave body hair and that's no big deal so why the fuck should I feel obligated to shave mine
- It makes me feel more androgynous and comfortable in my body
- I enjoy the way it looks and feels
- I find it attractive when other biologically females have body hair

I find it really annoying when people tell me it's gross that I don't shave. I shower every/every other day and wear deodorant so it's clean. And, honestly, I've NEVER heard a cisgendered man be told that they have to deal with their hair, that it's disgusting, that it's gross, and I'm told that most days. And I'm sick of it. It's just hair guys, we all have it, and whatever you chose to do with it is entirely your choice. Shave it, wax it, grow it, dye it, braid it, as long as you're happy with it, I don't give a fuck.
Do any of you go shave-less? Would you? Would you dye your body hair? Have you ever thought about why you shave, if you do? And, guys, do you ever get told off for having body hair? Any questions, I'd love to talk to people about this so that they can understand and not be afraid, because the fist step to acceptance is education!
School is the day after tomorrow
love yall

Thursday August 25, 2016 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Heya folks. The first thing y'all nned to know is that my name is not really salsa. My name is whatever the fuck I want it to be at the moment. Yesterday I was Sparkle Blood Wolfe. Tuesday I was DragonBlood Princess. Today I am hot fucking Salsa, because I am HOT HOT HOT. Tomorrow I'm feeling Blood Gumbo Jamboree. But I am a flexible woman, who knows, I might end up Plasma Gumbo Jamboree, motherfuckers. Second thing you need to know, I am a real mother fucking vampire. Don't mess with me bitches. I will suck you blood out of your beating heart in my hand motherfucker. I am so fucking hardcore, it makes my momma cry. You don't mess with a woman who makes her fucking Momma cry, bitches. I ain't no motherfucking pink preppy princess. The only P I like is in protection. Like what your gonna need if you mess with me. Third thing you need to know, if you're gonna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends. I am into some freaky shot, I take it down. I like it up down, all around, everywhere motherfucker. I want to do it with you, I want to do it with your Momma, I want to do it with you and your Momma. If you want us to "connect", you better be "connecting" pretty damn well with my friends. If you fuck up, trust me, they'll tell me. I judge. You better be thicker than a donkeys forelock. Fourth thing, you better bring an umbrella. You don't want to get wet when I make it rain.