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what i know and what i dont

i know i am in my room
i know i am z
i know its killjoys anniversary
i dont know whos lying next to me
i know it's dylan but im confused
im confused because i don't know who it is
i know where i am but i dont really
i know im not dissociating
i think im floating, not present
i want to hit something to know its real

xoxoz

dog names and christmas shopping

Hey everyone! So glad to see a bit more activity on here, every single post counts!
Exciting news, we're looking at Australian shepherd puppies to train as my service dog!!!!!!!!! I've never seen a puppy in real life. and Ive always had aussies. i think it would be a really good fit for my disability too. can you guys help me think of names? i want it to be a kinda funny name. but also cute. and not like a generic dog name.
I've done most of my xmas shopping. I got....
my brother some comic books
my mom a bath robe
my dad a vest (making it from scratch) and a frog tape despencer
my aunt

just making up for all the lack of posting

hey guys
it's awfully quiet here! lets liven things up a bit!
let's see... what's up in my life.....
Well, I might get a PTSD/anxiety service dog! Might. it's HELLA expensive (>$10,000). And takes a year or two to train and find the dog. but it would really help with my dissociations and everything. I have a phone interview with the organization I'm looking into in 11 days.
Today is a busy day. I had psych class. We talked about learning new behaviors and things of that sort. Quiz on Tuesday. I got extra credit HW, that will help my grades.I have therapy in 1.5 hours.

sorry ive been gone

sorry i was gone for a while. i was doing very bad but i turned it around :)

no class today, professor canceled.

have my doctors appointments today.

sorry if this is a boring blog. things are pretty boring right now.

xoxoz

i think its getting a little late i guess

time for bed? more like time to download all the disney movie soundtracks and try to do my psych home work
xoxoz

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Sunday November 19, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Hey everyone! So glad to see a bit more activity on here, every single post counts!
Exciting news, we're looking at Australian shepherd puppies to train as my service dog!!!!!!!!! I've never seen a puppy in real life. and Ive always had aussies. i think it would be a really good fit for my disability too. can you guys help me think of names? i want it to be a kinda funny name. but also cute. and not like a generic dog name.
I've done most of my xmas shopping. I got....
my brother some comic books
my mom a bath robe
my dad a vest (making it from scratch) and a frog tape despencer
my aunt lipstick
my boyfriend a 41 pack of condoms and funny socks (he only wears knee high funny socks)
my friends victoria's secret underwear
my grandma a hat im making
yeah. I think I'm a pretty good xmas shopper.
Lexicon would be a good dog name.
Lola (one of my dogs) is in bed with me. She's so funny. She's under the covers and isn't enjoying my noisy typing so she keeps groaning haha!!!
xoxoxz

Thursday November 16, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

hey guys
it's awfully quiet here! lets liven things up a bit!
let's see... what's up in my life.....
Well, I might get a PTSD/anxiety service dog! Might. it's HELLA expensive (>$10,000). And takes a year or two to train and find the dog. but it would really help with my dissociations and everything. I have a phone interview with the organization I'm looking into in 11 days.
Today is a busy day. I had psych class. We talked about learning new behaviors and things of that sort. Quiz on Tuesday. I got extra credit HW, that will help my grades.I have therapy in 1.5 hours. I have some cool art to show my therapist. I got a cool tin box, a hot glue gun, really cool dead bugs (I collect dead bugs), shark and human teeth (my teeth, don't worry), pictures, bones, a taxidermy turkey foot, some of my hair, ect and put it all to together to get some deep meaningful shit! But it would be a lot of typing to explain it all and I don't want to upset anyone haha.
I wish this site was active like it used to be. at least 4 posts a day. now there hasn't been one since, what, the 12th? that's like four days!!! c'mon guys!!!!
in other irrelevant news, I have tried wearing lip gloss. I was always scared cause it's messy and you can't make out when you have it on, but I have discovered I enjoy it immensely. that might be too strong a word. anyways, it looks good.
Dylan is good. He's such a good boyfriend. In about 2 weeks we will have been together for 11 months :) He's really good to me when I'm having a hard time with anxiety or dissociations. If I don't want to do something we don't do it, no questions asked. He's cute. He likes reptiles (which I don't know anything about but it's sorta really badass). He likes metal, I like punk. We both dye our hair. I'm pink hair, he's blue. He's just tall enough to rest his head on mine. I don't appreciate him as much as I should. He listens to me even if I'm talking about my mental health and it's hard to hear. I hope I'm as good to him as he is to me. We're pretty fucking adorable.
Anyways, keep rocking dudes.
I hope they read my blogs on here at my funeral cause they're deep, weird, and personal as fuck. Not that I'm having a funeral any time soon o.0
sorry for the long blog, just making up for all the lack of posting here.
xoxoz

Thursday November 09, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

sorry i was gone for a while. i was doing very bad but i turned it around :)

no class today, professor canceled.

have my doctors appointments today.

sorry if this is a boring blog. things are pretty boring right now.

xoxoz

Thursday October 26, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

time for bed? more like time to download all the disney movie soundtracks and try to do my psych home work
xoxoz

Wednesday October 25, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

Have you ever seen new England in the fall? The leaves bright colors. I like driving by fast and seeing the blur of reds, orange, pink and yellow. It's really cool. We're on our way to mass moca ,  a really cool art museum.
Hope you guys are well. I'm glad I have not much going on except this museum trip with dad and his friends.
That's all with now. Shit is kinda boring.
Got my orange boots on, ripped black jeans, yellow "jeasus was was wrong" shirt, skill bandanna around my neck and old leather jacket.
Why did i write what I'm wearing? Cause I fucking felt like it.
Xoxoz

Monday October 23, 2017 
| Posted by: chpeverill-conti

life is too clean and i cant fucking stand it i want everything to be dirty and messy and chaotic maybe i've been listening to too much black flag and shit but i feel maddened. i need to make shit dirtier but dont know how fuck maybe ill spray paint some shit that helps usually or make art thats good too
class in half an hour
xoxoz