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wowzers

on February 27, 2018 - 12:25pm

so it's been a minute. feeling hella nostalgic as I'm about to go to college, and when i first signed up here i was a little baby middle school emo. i'm doing awesome, I've found something i love doing and I'm going to harrisburg to study it and I'm really excited for the new place and new experiences. and even though it seems like a million years ago since i was 12 and listened avidly to my chem and did all the stupid things i used to do, I'm thankful for it.

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3 Years

on March 22, 2016 - 3:18pm

I don't really know what to say except that I miss them. And Izzy, if you're reading this, I miss you more. I think about you so much, and I hope to meet you one day. Thank you for everything, I hope to someday come back to our happy bubble.

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I'M SO SORRY

on July 19, 2013 - 10:23am

I am so sorry to everyone on here that I talked to. I am so sorry that I completely just dropped off the planet. You totally deserve more than that. I cannot apologize enough. I am so, so sorry.
To one person in particular, you deserve an explanation more than anyone. I trust that you know who you are. The person I told everything to, and who told me everything. I wish, so much, that I could still talk to you but I literally can't. Someone found out about everything and so many things have gone on and I'm not allowed. I am so sorry.
But, before I go, I owe every single person on here a huge

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Why hello

on May 28, 2013 - 2:26pm

Just thought I'd say hi:)

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Ray Toro's amazingness

on May 25, 2013 - 6:42pm

I love Ray's new song. It's so relatable. His voice really surprised me, it's so soft but really powerful. And the guitar solo was just,.... he's a guitar god. I love it and him so much.

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Tuesday February 27, 2018 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

so it's been a minute. feeling hella nostalgic as I'm about to go to college, and when i first signed up here i was a little baby middle school emo. i'm doing awesome, I've found something i love doing and I'm going to harrisburg to study it and I'm really excited for the new place and new experiences. and even though it seems like a million years ago since i was 12 and listened avidly to my chem and did all the stupid things i used to do, I'm thankful for it. it was like a 'darker before the dawn" type thing, i started to realize i wasn't happy in seventh grade and life kinda sucked for a really long time and i honestly made it worse for myself which i do regret, but i needed to realize that i was unhappy in order to start the process of fixing it. not by listening to music or talking to friends, which does help don't get me wrong, but fix it in the long term, with professional help and medication and being honest with everyone around me, including myself. people i thought were going to be in my life forever left, and that's okay. odds are, your best friend at 13 isn't going to be your best friend at 22.i grew up and I'm still growing up and I'm a completely different person now. a different, much happier, much more at peace person. i still remember the people i met on here and i think about you guys a lot. thank you for giving me one of my favorite parts of my childhood<3.

Tuesday March 22, 2016 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

I don't really know what to say except that I miss them. And Izzy, if you're reading this, I miss you more. I think about you so much, and I hope to meet you one day. Thank you for everything, I hope to someday come back to our happy bubble.

Friday July 19, 2013 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

I am so sorry to everyone on here that I talked to. I am so sorry that I completely just dropped off the planet. You totally deserve more than that. I cannot apologize enough. I am so, so sorry.
To one person in particular, you deserve an explanation more than anyone. I trust that you know who you are. The person I told everything to, and who told me everything. I wish, so much, that I could still talk to you but I literally can't. Someone found out about everything and so many things have gone on and I'm not allowed. I am so sorry.
But, before I go, I owe every single person on here a huge thank you. You have all guided me so much without meaning to, helped me without trying. Only now that it is being taken away do I realize how terribly dependent on all of you I was, especially since MCR broke up. For two beautiful months after my crap started, I had those four beautiful men who were just as messed up as me, even more so, tell me everything I needed to hear. When that was done, I turned to all of you and wouldn't be sitting here without you. Honestly.
Most of all, Izz. I owe you my life nine times over. You are so beautiful. Please, please, please, be strong. Stay in the bubble. I can't talk anymore, but I think of you so much, wish I could talk to you. I really do. I want so much to talk to you. I'm still rooting for you. You are still one of my all time favorite people, and deserve so much more than the shit you are given. I will be in your debt forever.
I cannot repay you for what you did no matter what I do. Please be strong and stay beautiful. You are one of the most beautiful people I've ever, ever, ever met or will ever have the extreme pleasure of meeting. You are so amazing. Please don't let anyone destroy what a beautiful person you are, and don't let anyone drive you to the point where you destroy yourself. It would be such a loss to the world if that light in you went out. The world needs that light, and you are one of the few who still have the real thing. The one you don't have to fake or put makeup on. Remember that what kills those who are mean to you most is seeing you happy.
I love you all so much and owe you everything I have. I cannot thank you or apologize to you enough.
-J

Tuesday May 28, 2013 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

Just thought I'd say hi:)

Saturday May 25, 2013 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

I love Ray's new song. It's so relatable. His voice really surprised me, it's so soft but really powerful. And the guitar solo was just,.... he's a guitar god. I love it and him so much.

Wednesday May 22, 2013 
| Posted by: jn123450@yahoo.com

I watched "Angels Take Manhattan" today. I had just discovered it and had some catching up to do. I was all happy to see The Doctor in a cowboy hat in "A Town Called Mercy"(the episode before that one) and I was kinda geeking-out because I was so happy that Rose and Rory made it off the building alive and then Rory disappeared (the WORST DEATH SCENE EVER!) and then Amy went on purpose and I...... can't even.........
I hate and love these fandoms. It's all so emotional and happy and sad and fantastic and terrible and then you realize that these are fictional characters and nothing is happening to you but you kinda want it to be real, in all it's terror and darkness and death..........
I can't even.............................