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Another Poem For Him.

on January 24, 2016 - 2:37pm

The time is not
late,
Nor is it to be
early.
It is plain day
and I miss you.

This is how I
Know,
that what I
Feel
Happens to be
real love for you.

Cause even with
Work
And the random
Shit
Throughout my day,
You’re still on my mind.

Never for an
hour
nor even an
instant
do you not cross
my thoughts.

I hope you’re not
Alone
I hope you’re not missing
me
As painfully as I
am for you…

I love you,
Lethander.
You’re the most
Amazing
and talented person
I will ever know.

Jade Trisdale 1-23-16 8:46pm
A poem for my boyfriend.

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Personal Stuff

on January 24, 2016 - 1:46pm

Hey guys, sorry for the lack of blogs. I realize I have failed to keep my promise of posting a poem a day.... I'm sorry.... I just haven't been feeling it lately. I'm still trying to write, though. Most of it is sappy shit that I jot down them throw away cause it sucks. And, as always, if you guys want a poem, go ahead and suggest something. I'm open for pretty much anything, and if it challenges me, maybe It'll get me back into the spin of things.
Speaking of my lack of motivation... I'm contemplating quitting the Spring Play... Nothing is clicking lately and I haven't done any of my

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Personal Stuff (Help???)

on January 20, 2016 - 8:47am

I need a long monologue for my acting class!! Could you guys please help me out? It's gotta be 5 minutes or longer and (slightly) school appropriate. I'm performing it in front of my class, and all the good ones were taken -.-

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What is this?

on January 19, 2016 - 9:05am

Arms wrapped tight around you.
Whispering sweet nothings
in your ear.
Is this love?
When I feel so close to you;
When I feel cared for
Not just desired for.
Having an intimate connection,
without the physical intimacy.
A first kiss wouldn’t hurt,
would it?
Not unless it leads to more
because more always leads to
ever so much confusion.
Where do you place
your hands when there
is more?
How do you speak,
When there’s more?
No, simplicity is best.
A simple kind of Love.
With understanding,
and care.
~Jade Trisdale

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Personal Stuff

on January 18, 2016 - 9:14am

I haven't had the motivation to post anything recently... I'm sorry... I've been meaning to, but.. nothing... I'm planning on spending a few hours online sometime to read through everyones blogs and comment on them though... I don't know when.. I haven't been writing much poetry lately.. maybe if i were assigned something i could do it.. but nothing is coming up through my pen lately... so... yeah. If you guys have a poetry request.. i'll take it.
Anyways, I hope you're all having a good day and listening to good music <3

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Monday January 18, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

I haven't had the motivation to post anything recently... I'm sorry... I've been meaning to, but.. nothing... I'm planning on spending a few hours online sometime to read through everyones blogs and comment on them though... I don't know when.. I haven't been writing much poetry lately.. maybe if i were assigned something i could do it.. but nothing is coming up through my pen lately... so... yeah. If you guys have a poetry request.. i'll take it.
Anyways, I hope you're all having a good day and listening to good music <3

Thursday January 14, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

Another loved star died this week; Alan Rickman... I found out during my first class and about threw my laptop across the room. Just doesn't seem fair... Bowie... Rickman... both gone in the same week...
Let's move on to a different topic before I upset myself again! I've been listening to a lot of FNAF songs and mashups today. That's pretty much all I've done the past hour and a half to two hours. I'm supposed to be working on Khanacademy because we have a sub in math, but I'm not feeling up to it, so instead, I'm on my email and listening to youtube! If anyone wants to talk to me today, feel free! My email is >> suka.tris@gmail.com <<Help free me from my boredom!!
I have rehearsal for the play 'Moon Over Buffalo" tonight. I'm the character Eileen. **starts singing 'Come on Eileen'** Sorry if I seem a bit spazzy today, I'm tired as shit but listening to a lot of upbeat music, so I blame the music for my spazziness!! Well, the music or my determination not to be super depressed today! I wore heals today, big mistake. I have no idea how to walk in them and about broke my neck walking to the bus this morning! DX Though they make me taller! Now I'm only maybe a foot shorter than my love!! I can almost reach to kiss his cheek without him having to bend down!
Ugh! I haven't eaten anything today and my stomach won't stop clenching :( And lunch isn't for another half hour v.v sad days. My love is already at lunch, so I won't be able to talk to him for another hour v.v He's been pretty upset today... I wish I knew how to cheer him up. Aside from just sending him adorable/funny gifs and images.
ANYWAYS, I hope everyone is having a good day today and listening to good music <3

Wednesday January 13, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

Images, flashing
Memories, fleeting.
What is happening to me?
Sitting in a classroom,
yet I see trees.
Listening to the lecture,
but I hear my name
on his lips

Please go away…
No longer should you be
in my mind, speaking to me.
These years that have passed,
meant the pain shouldn’t last.
Why do I still feel
these memories that reel?

In a bush,
hidden from sight.
No here….
No, I’m in a classroom,
listening to the lecture…
Your lips, shall no longer utter
this name that you once muttered.
~ ©Jade Trisdale
8:24am 1/12/16

*I wrote this yesterday when I was having a flashback of a certain bad childhood event...*

Tuesday January 12, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

I decided that I'm going to title my blogs on my personal life "Personal Stuff", and my blogs about poetry will have the title of the poem.
So here's some personal stuff:
This week has not been kind to me. Nor me to it. I just want to curl into a ball and cry my eyes out. I just found out I'm failing Alg 2. My teacher emailed my mum today and mum is P.I.S.S.E.D.... So I didn't get to go to the school basketball game tonight. Not like I had any real interest in the sport, I was mainly wanting to go to see my love play his Bari Sax in orchestra... But oh well, right... Not like it matters anymore, the game is over now... I never get to see him anyways, what's one more time where I don't get to see him. At least I had Bio with him today, and I got to see him smiling/laughing.
Granted the rest of my day was shit. I had some bad flashbacks this morning and haven't been able to focus all day since... I've been on a downswing for some time now. I don't feel like I'm getting better. I thought I was before, but it feels like it's back full force. If that's the case... that's not good. My love knows this, and he's trying to help, but nothing seems to be able to pull me out of myself. Now that I recognize what's happening, I SHOULD be able to stop it, or help myself; but nooooooo. I feel completely useless against the thoughts in my head. They make me feel worthless, like a failure that can't do anything...
Okay, I'm probably getting out of hand here, typing the depressing shit crossing through my head. Sometimes, it just helps me to write out how I feel like this; not in poetry format; not in lyrical; write it how I would say it. As if I am saying it, just not out loud... sorry...
ANYWAYS I hope you all are doing okay. <3

Monday January 11, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

As a temptress
I fill you with carnal desire
to give in to your human ways.
Forget your God for the nights you’re with me.
I can be your expression of sin.

They may call me a succubus.
A demon that steals the hearts of Innocence.
Teases you with childish abandon.
Acting ashamed of my deeds

Your God may hate me,
but it is my kind that keep him in business.
Acting on our pleasures
while you stare-
Envious.

Your God keeps you pure
Pureness is not so easily tempted,
but I can try.
I can try.
and Succeed…
~ ©Jade Trisdale

Sunday January 10, 2016 
| Posted by: lostn'foundagain

What I have realized is,
that when someone tells me
they love me more than anything,
they really mean I’m just another
chess piece in their game of life...

And it's true...
For again, and again I have
witnessed it, heard those words drip
from a pair of lying honeyed lips.
Tasted the bitter sweetness of a lie
called "Love".

As you write over and over,
on tables, on desks;
what were those words you so love?
"Life is a cruel lie, Death is the heartless truth"
I know those aren't word for word.
But you will understand it.

Because life is a cruel, and decent lie
when contrasted to the unpitied truth
of the deceased.

Yet this game we are living,
filled with pawns and knights and queens;
We are each our own kings or queens.
In our own games. In others, we are the pawns,
we are the spare pieces.
Able to be sacrificed for the sake of the Leaders.

Alas, all games come to an end sometime.
It comes when your heart
can take no more of the pain
no more of the lies fed through a straw.
When will you see the truth
or the sign of Game Over...?
~ ©Jade Trisdale