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oh for fuck's sake (rant continued i'm sorry)

so now Will (from my last rant, the one who is like my brother and who makes things better) has sent the guitarists girlfriend a paragraph on why she needs to stop doing the thing to her arm because it's making Alex sad... like seriously i don't know what to do who do i trust WHAT DO I DO please my world is kinda falling apart i don't know how to cope anymore i'm so scared i just want everything to stop i can't fucking cope with this shit

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this is not okay i am not okay (rant sorry)

so the drummer in our band, Rob, basically started talking to me a lot recently. this is fine, i like talking to people on the internet more than real life, it's less stressful. but then he just started saying he really liked me and that i was beautiful and he loved my eyes until i couldn't fucking take it coz i told him no after he did it every time but he just carried on and then today he said he loved me and i told him i was gonna block him because it was becoming obsessive and i was really scared he was being really pervy. then he said "it's okay another girl i like sucked off my best friend so i don't have a chance with her, so don't feel like im ignoring you " and i started crying because i'm really self conscious and he's scaring me. then i blocked him on everything and told my friend Will who's pratically my brother atm and also the guitarist Alex and they're kicking him out the band and having a word with him.

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I did it!

so i finally told a few of my friends i was bi. and they didn't freak out. like, i mean i threatened the with being eaten alive and scalped if they told anybody but they accepted it. i feel slightly happier that i can finally be accepted by someone not on the internet, because even though you guys are by best friends, its not quite the same as having someone right there next to you who you can look to for support, and not just people who you hold in your heart. thank you all so much guys for giving me the courage to do this, i love you all so so so so so much, especially Z, who is my best friend in the whole world and i would do anything for her. I love you all and thank you for letting me be who i am x.0

Kindle xoxo

now just my parents..... shit.

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can i talk to someone asap

im kinda freaking out i did a bad thing and now im scared everybody is gonna find ut and i told another friend i'd tell them something but im scared and everybody is going to judge me and im going to end up alone again with half the world hating me help me please i can't cope

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is this just my cd or..

so i got may death never stop you today through the post, but on a few tracks parts of the songs are missing. in you know what they do to guys like us in prison the lines from "well they all cheat at cards" to "in drag" are not there, and in the ghost of you half he guitar is missing, is this just my cd so i can buy another one or is i like that on everyones?

Straight xx

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fuck everything

i am tired of trying to be nice. i can't win. i try to be supportive of everybody, and make sure everybody around me i happy. but i can't do it anymore. i feel isolated. like nobody actually wants to talk to me. and i know most people don't. im sorry i avoided this site for so long, it just hurt to go on here because of certain things.. but im not okay. im close to breaking again. it's not fair. why can't i just be normal for once in my fucking life? i hate it. i hate everything. i want to go home from my "wonderland" now. it's getting dark again..

im so scared

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help me

OKAY THIS S NOT OKAY "LOOK AT ALL THAT PAIN" WHY DID YOU DO THIS I AM CATAPULTED INTO ANOTHER EMO PHASE GOODBYE LIFE HERE COMES MY CRYING FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE SOMEONE HUG ME WE NEED A GROUP HUG M NOT COPING HEAVEN HELP US I AM NOT O FUCKING KAY

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meeeeeeeeeeee

here's a picture of me not being a weirdo ;) also anybody know of any good horror movies that are 15's on netflix because my friend is coming over for a sleepover (you heard me right, a friend xD) and she's not allowed to watch 18's so yeah... i've seen most of them, but any reccomendations?? xoxoxo

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so i finally did it

I finally cut my hair, and to be quite Frank, i think it looks hella awesome for a me-style xD what do you think?? x.0

Kindle xoxo

also, happy fucking christmas, and a crappy new year, I have no time for them in my busy schedule of sleeping, music, and eating xD

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happy christmas

happy christmas everyone on here, especially Z and Femme Fatale, you mean the world to me!! also a happy christmas and a hopefully brighter new year mcrwise to agent anonymous, Killjoys never die, tangent star, blood'y revenge and every other fabulous killjoy who is nice enough to talk to me that I've accidentally missed of (sorry if i have xoxoxo) and Lonestar if you see this please smile because we all care about you so much and I'm talking for everybody here when I say we miss you and we all love you x.0

quack quack, motherfuckers,

Kindle xoxoxo