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space. time. think. break. repeat.

A day or so ago I put up a post on what's happening in my life atm that me and my long time girlfriend broke up since then my mind has cleared a little bit. It has come to light because me and her are still best friends and we talk everyday which Im thankful for and love that we can still be that way without any issues. But back to my point in my last post I explained why she gave up on us because of our distance because of the road blocks that where in our way.

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in the middle of nowhere.

This time last year my heart was ripped out of my chest. I was under the impression I'd lost the one person that had ever ment something to me. In all honesty she ment everything to me. But she came back..we got together properly and we where happy so very happy and in love. But now in such irony I've lost her forever. I'm trying to cope with everything I've got left in me but Fuck it's hard the pain I just want it to stop. Just everything stop. My mind is doing overtime I just want it to stop. I want to stop thinking. Because it's killing me. I just it feels like my world has just been ripped away and the worst part is what happened wasn't my fault I had no control over it. The passport issues in the uk stop me the first time (from going to see her) second time I was to sick. Not that I don't understand exactly why she gave up she got tired of waitin but. I don't even know anymore. All I know is this pain needs to stop. Before it stops me. I just..I don't know anymore

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been a long time..

So long time no see as they say killjoys, how is everybody?? Good I hope. Im doing pretty well myself off to my beautiful girlfriend in two months. Funny how in a year everything can change isint it? A year ago I'd just met her and I'd only been useing this site for about two months things got crazy I made some mishaps along the way but somehow we made it. And I personally made it through thanks to this amazing girl but also thanks to this site a site I feel I owe a lot too it's gave me a home like place and a girl a person I didint think existed and a thanks to the band that this very site exists from. my chem. As there music still pulls me from going insane sometimes and just the greatness that is there music in general so I thank you and a thank you to all the killjoys that keep Gerards idea alive. Keep fighting keep running until I'm here again so long and goodnight

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN KILLJOYS!! :3

Just want to wish a very awesome and happy Halloween to everyone :3

This feels like pretty good news shame its not a new new album but hay why not have a cd with loads of awesome mcr tracks on? how thay managed to choose is astounding seeing all there songs are epic Also gerard is said to be doing things to do with makeing music what with his track millions floating about what's your guys take on gerard going solo the mcr greatest hits album?

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wow...well hello killjoys

(Just like to put please click on this message to read it in full as its important you'll see what I mean if you so choose to read thank you :)..)Ok, so hello lovely mcr family. I like to call you guys that cos comeing back on here afther some time away feels like comeing home I haveint been on here much since mcr broke up I don't know why I just stoped I regret that. But party sam poison is back how are you all? I'm doing well I have a an amazing beatiful girlfrend that I met on this very site! :3 she's awesome! And I can safely say I love her. With all my heart I'm very happy :3 I'm still trying and trying to get my band up and running its very Damn hard to do so I've found out lol but I say if somethinks easy to do what's the point in doing it?

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pandas

Ok so this blog has nothink to do with pandas or mcr for that matter it is about how in Feb of this year on this very website I met the most amazing funny calming kind sweet Loveing caring girl in the world,and I am so very lucky to be able to call her mine I will and forever do anythink for her I will go through a million wars for her.I'm going to met her soon and I can't wait I'm going to cuddle the hell outa her Haha I've found somethink so very special with this girl I cant even explan it but my heart hurts not being with her my arms ache to hold her its funny I miss her like she was always ment to be with me and I think she is I know I've fallon so hard for this girl she owns my heart my mind my soul every inch of me belongs to her and all I known is she's an amazing person and someone who I'm going to have in my life til the day my heart stops

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how much things change in 24 hours..

So in my last blog I said I lose the only person I've ever truly cared for the girl of my dreams my ms.right today I woke up to find I have her back things got sorted out she's still mine so I gusse what I'm saying is no matter what hell you go or are going through it gets better killjoys thank you to the killjoys that commented and msged me you guys are the best and if any of you have someone in your life you'd die for don't ever let them go never cos if you have the one or when you find her or him don't let em go

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time

So this isint mcr related this life related in Feb of this year I meet the most amazing,astounding,caring,loveing,kind,passionate,funny,honest,awesome,cool,great,beatiful,just breath takeningly girl we had somethink amazing that no one else had we still do we always will but today I lost her not to someone else not to death she's not gone missing nothink like that but I lost her I understand how and why but it doseint stop this knife in my heart though I can't cry anymore don't think there's anymore tears to be shed I'm just numb though I still hurt that don't make since but that's how I feel she is my world always will be though I hope to be with her one day if she meets a nice guy I want her to be happy so as much as it will kill me as long as she is happy this girl deserves that she deserves the world I hope she gets it weather it be with me I hope or with someone else I hope your happy baby just know I'm still there no matter what forever and always your dark knight owl.one day one

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HAPPY MCR DAY GUYS!!

HAPPY MCR DAY KILLJOYS BLACK PARADERS MCRMY THAY MAY BE GONE BUT WE WILL KEEP FIGHTING KEEP RUNNING KEEP SINGING JUST LIKE THAY SHOWED US MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE FOREVER!!