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why am i always alone in this perdicument of a life?

I can never find anyone to call my own, I'm crawling on my belly towards an entending bliss of nothingness death favours those who favour death.

I'm simply dying to end this suffering, just the thought of the loneleness and suffering the pain and distorted dreams.

The visions I get are real and you should be warned by what I see in a post apocalyptic WWIII.

Im not okay I'm really not okay what your missing out on when I tell you this babe is I'm ok ( trust me)

I miss you

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Accepted

So I got The call I have been waiting for, there is a Higher Power after all :D

I'm going to College for my G.E.D.

then I'm going to further my edumacation and get a diploma in a field of study I just have to find out what they offer and what I might be good at :D

I really want to be a pyrotechnician and work with fireworks I have a passion for fireworks and have been setting off shows in my neighborhood for as long as I can remember.

YAAAY

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I lost all my friends from here ( the Black Parade is Dead)

If you could grab me a glass of water cuz I'm sick and i'll form all the kemo and if I say goodbye today I'd have to say the hardest part of this is leaving you

(am I even singing this song right?)

well yeah my friends never get on here anymore and I'm lonely

but what do you expect I'm 21 and Bipolar and frankly don't have any real friends

Title says it all I'm falling hard in a vicious love triangle I have my ex who has accepted me again but wants me to give her time to think things over.

Then you have my staff member from work, whose never going to date me but acts like she's intrested in me so I'm sitting here like da fuq?

Why cant I just be happy for once?

Title says it all I'm falling hard in a vicious love triangle I have my ex who has accepted me again but wants me to give her time to think things over.

Then you have my staff member from work, whose never going to date me but acts like she's intrested in me so I'm sitting here like da fuq?

Why cant I just be happy for once?

Title says it all I'm falling hard in a vicious love triangle I have my ex who has accepted me again but wants me to give her time to think things over.

Then you have my staff member from work, whose never going to date me but acts like she's intrested in me so I'm sitting here like da fuq?

Why cant I just be happy for once?

Title says it all I'm falling hard in a vicious love triangle I have my ex who has accepted me again but wants me to give her time to think things over.

Then you have my staff member from work, whose never going to date me but acts like she's intrested in me so I'm sitting here like da fuq?

Why cant I just be happy for once?

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well well my lovelies here the predicament where in

4 things could happen in a turntable like this when you put your life on the line to take it all for a girl you love when the girl you love doesn't realize jsut how much you really love her.

1.) she could come through for you and she could go out with you and you becoem happy together

2.) she doesn't accept you and you go back into spiraling depression and suicidal ideation

3.) she cheats on you with another guy after being in a relationship with you

4.) she ignores you , you become depressed and you try to commit suicide, after which her finding out you did it over her, she gets freaked and she leaves you for good and your left in a hospital to find your next true love in a hospital with a bunch of other crazies

X)

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Time Changes, Best Friends Can Become Strangers

well you know it happens every now and then you have a best friend but they don't stay forever they leave and when they leave, they usually don't come back , but if they do when you cross paths again there like complete strangers to you.

they don't remember you, they don't answer your calls, nothing it's like you don't exist

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how do I show you it's not the life it seems (I'm Not Okay)

I'm trying to win back the trust of my ex that I really want back but everything I say makes her mad

so why am I wasting my time can someone just tell me wtf girls are so complicated ?

uggggggh