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Time Changes, Best Friends Can Become Strangers

well you know it happens every now and then you have a best friend but they don't stay forever they leave and when they leave, they usually don't come back , but if they do when you cross paths again there like complete strangers to you.

they don't remember you, they don't answer your calls, nothing it's like you don't exist

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how do I show you it's not the life it seems (I'm Not Okay)

I'm trying to win back the trust of my ex that I really want back but everything I say makes her mad

so why am I wasting my time can someone just tell me wtf girls are so complicated ?

uggggggh

well I knew it was bound to happen I have Bipolar type 2 Manic Depressive

and Seasonal Depression

I just went through a Manic phase and now I am in a state of psycotic Depression

and I'm sorta in a Crisis

no no I'm not saying I'm going to hurt myself or anything like that I'm perfectly safe

all I'm saying is that

I'm tired of being used

and what I mean by this is every girl I meet wants to date me and only date me for sex

why? why do they only want sex from me ? why can't I have a normal relationship?

and I don't know what religion to be anymore so I'm just whatever I give up

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gnawr kill

So I'm kinda having theese weird thoughts about satan and death and shit like that

I'm not even a satanist or anything, I'm agnostic I don't know what to believe in

I don't know where any of you stand on this but I have become unstable because of it.

I feel like over dossing or something I need help but my parents won't listen

And if any of you fucking trolls get on here and say shit I'd love to see this actually happen to you

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Rant

Fuck work, Fuck Politics, Fuck the government

I hate my Job, I hate the Government, I hate Society

rabble rabble rabble

They took my Job

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Skylines and Turntables

You know how they say everyone is destined to find some one in there lives?

well I haven't found my calling and I don't know if I ever will (WTF is wrong with me?)

anyways I know I have alot of mistakes to fault and things I'm not proud of doing in the past but that shouldn't stop some one from not liking you? should it?

and so what if I explore my faith however the hell I choose atleast I'm not the child from the Omen

I just want someone that likes me for me and doesn't judge me, someone that accepts me for the fact that I'm Bipolar and wasn't the smartest kid in highschool

ffs I just want to be loved

on a side note

I think I found a girl but from what I here from her she is treating our friendship as a hookup for a booty call

what should I do about that?

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I wish I had a GF

Ive been single for 6 months now I just wish I could have some one that could care for me

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Merry Freaking Christmas

Hey everyone I know I havent been on here in a while I kinda forgot this place even existed still so here I am trying to catch up with everyone and say what I have to say I miss my friends from here and i really don't know what happend to half of them but if I could see them today it would make me happy

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MCR and Blink 182 concert

ok so mcr and blink 182 are coming to atlanta on september 21st and that's like 3 days before i turn 20 so im really excited because my mom said i could go to the concert

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uuuunn

i feel like shit everything sucks there's just nothing i can do im tired of this so i don't know anymore