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Shit I'm Fucking Sleepy right now. How is everyone?

Hell I'm hanging in there but you know I'm just so Alone right now. I mean I guess I'm not Trying hard enough to find friends and socialize, or no one is really interested in me.

So idrk but yeah I'm just kinda feeling mixed up and blunt about everything. I'm kinda just like fuck this shit, fuck that, oh and fuck you too, You know? It's just one of those days you just wish everyone would die. I'm just kinda pissed and upset.

I can't get over the fact that some one who used to love me so much could just turn there back on me and treat me like a fucking stranger.

any how idk I just kinda give up trying you know? It's like you'll be ok you know you just need to go to this place they'll help you. And I'm like no I'm ok Honest I just want a coke you know? and there like no that's not normal behavior your on drugs.

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Heart Ache

I need you now more like yesterday
The last day I could see you smile.
For the last time turn out the lights
My life on standby.

I fall to pieces, I can't let go
Of all the times I never said goodbye.

Just say that it's over,
It's over and she's gone.

(WAKE UP!) Wake up now it's over...
(WAKE UP!) Just tell me it's ok to die
(WAKE UP!) Wake up now it's over...
(WAKE UP!) Just tell me it's ok to die

Wake up now it's over...
just tell me it's ok to die
Wake up now it's over...
just tell me it's ok to die

My Soul has been torn apart, ripped away by the only threads that where holding it together. My love has stabbed me with a rusty nail. I will never know what it it's like to love some one again.

2 years, 2 Fucking years and now you go and turn on me just like that?

I guess I wasn't good enough.

I wish I had some one to call mine.

I'm sick of this pain, this feeling of emptyness. I'm so alone in this world of nothing.

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How old are you?

well here we go I'm gonna get all touchy feely * gropes boobies*

JK but any ways how old are most of you fellers on here?

I know I'm so freaking old right? ( omg he's a pedophile)

NO NO I know the law and don't want to go there.

but yeah I'm 22 and I lurv Me some MCR.

anyone around there 20's ? on here or is everyone mainly Teens?

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1 year Ago

1 magical year ago fate brought me and Skull Rose together and we couldn't be happier together.

I luv you skullrose

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in the eyes of BlueBurnsBlack

Where do I begin this Journey of life?

How bout when I first found out about MCR yes?

Okay here goes my Sister had already been listening to them since they formed, but I wasn't aware of them yet I only new 2 Songs at the time by them I'm Not Okay ( I promise) and Helena. As the years went by after 9-11 when Gerard was inspired to write Skylines and Turnstiles (correct me if I'm wrong), I kinda didn't know much about them still, Until 8th Grade.

wait a minute what's this you ask? I didn't really know about them till 8th grade?

well yes my fellow killjoys I found out more about them by the time I reached the 8th grade which for me would have been when I was 13/14 I had just heard Welcome To The Black Parade on my local radio station in Atlanta, Georgia.

I was so astonished and amazed at the sound. I couldn't believe what I was hearing so much feeling so many emotions it was as if someone really understood me finally.

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Distress

I'm so alone

All I want is a gf I can actually see, visit, go on dates with is that to much to ask for?

I've been single for 3 fucking years I'm tired of hearing the same shit I just want to be loved.

I feel so hopeless it's like every girl I like is a stuck up rich bitch, country, slut, or preppy.

Ffs wtf do I have to do?

I give up

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Just wondering where all the Americans are?

So I live in Atlanta, Georgia and I'm trying to find out who is the closet to where I live?!

mainly all I get are people from foreign countries.

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poetry

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

Well isn't it lovely to know that the one ex you still have feelings for that you have been dating on and off completely hates you?

To the point of where we where at one time dating on and off since 16 and at that time she stated she wanted to marry me and have my kids.

what a two faced bitch! later in the relationship I broke up with her several times for different reasons as well as her breaking up with me.

I went my seperate way, became a Pagan and practiced witchcraft.

later on I came crawling back to her after several attempts to die.

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on a personal note

well my 22nd birthday is coming up and I don't really want anything

cuz what I asked for I'm doing on the 29th

and what I really want no girl wants to do that with me or likes me or they do want to do it but are underage and half way across the globe.

is it really that hard?

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How do you tell if a girl has blown you off?

so I went on a date with a girl my age and it seemed like all was well but at the end of the night I got no kiss goodnight or a hug goodnight.

I just talked to her while waiting on my ride since she didn't want to drive me home.

anyways I was talking to her yesterday and the day before just small talk she seemed to be happy and all but then today I asked her if we would see each other again she replied idk.

I feel used.

shit why does this keep happening to me?

I guess I wasn't meant to be in a relationship at all.