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I luve my Bae

on September 12, 2014 - 1:26pm

This is my new GF she's not on here I don't think but her name is Jessica and she's 18

where were you 13 years ago today?

on September 11, 2014 - 5:23am

Today is the 13th anniversary of the worst day in America.

Where were you?

I was in 5th grade Home Room we where having a President Game day at school I was supposed to be the President for my class. ( I was in Special Ed)

My teachers all went to a private room for like 20 minutes when the principal called a meeting for the teachers.

None of us kids knew until we got home.

I got home around 3 and my brother had the news on I thought it was a movie at first and asked him hey cool what movie are you watching?

He said no little bro this is real this happened this morning.

I screamed in Horror I was so upset and angry.

My mom had one of the terrorist who flew the planes into the building as a patient where she works.

Even worse I watched them practice run over my house in the summer and didn't know what it was when I should have called 911.

An Ending To A Cancerous Relationship

on September 10, 2014 - 3:39pm

This is my Calling This is my Purpose.

I thought you where mine but you where a joke, I thought you liked me but it was only a game to you.

Now you're gone and I just want to be your friend when everything comes crashing down.

But you won't let me in.

It's all too much; I can feel my lungs collapse on me!!!!!

My Bitter Soul weeps for only for myself after you have left and torn me apart.

I just want to say that I loved you and respected you, I tried to give you everything you ever wanted.

but you just left me like I was a dog tossed out in the rain.

You killed my soul, I have nothing, like clock work you went your separate way and destroyed me.

What is it like? does it feel good? do you love him? is he all you ever wanted?
What all the other boys all promised.
Sorry I told. I just needed you to know.
I think in decimals and dollars.
I am the cause to all your problems,
Shelter from cold. we are never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.

Watching Accepted

on September 9, 2014 - 9:38am

That Movie is Love.
That Movie is Life.

Blah Blah

on September 6, 2014 - 5:08am

1. Real Name? Kevin Benjamin Mills

2. If you could change your name? Ezekiel

3. Obsessions? Paintball and Fireworks

4. Male or Female? Male

5. Elementary School? Craig,Gwinn Oaks

6. Middle School? Crews

7. High School? Brookwood (9th),Cedars Academy[Hell Hole] (10th) Apalachee ( 11th-12th)

8. Want to go to college? Maybe

9. Natural Hair color? Blackish brown

10. Tall or Short? Me Tall, Gf Short

11. Sweats or Jeans? jeans.

12. Phone or Camera? Phone

13. Health Freak? Not Really

14. Orange or Apple? Apple

15. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes

16. Eat or Drink? Both?

17. Ever broken a bone? Collar Bone

18. Pepsi or Coke? Coke

19. Been in an airplane? Yep

20. Been in a relationship? Several

21. Been in a car accident? No

22. Caused a fight? A Few Times

OTHER THINGS

24. Best Friend? Brad Stevens

25. First friend you ever made? Preston Tippet

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MY BLOG

Sunday August 24, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

haha yeah I really do have Black Rings around the bottoms of my eyes from Depression,Anxiety, Stress, and lack of Sleep during my teenage years.

Mix that in with long shaggy hair, side burns, and a full grown beard you would look at me and think I was in my 30's.

I'm really 23.

But yeah what do I want for my B-Day???

I want a GF and the last MCR Album. :')

Monday August 18, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day,
to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.

Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?

The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The days get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.

I like songs about drifters - books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?

The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.

I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.

just added the lyrics to give the setting, anyhow well It is getting closer to Autumn, and I will be headed to the coast in September, but the shitty part about that is..... Everyone is either back in school, or back in college.

Sooo with that being said, there won't be a lot of girls there around my age and if there are any around my age they are either married, have a bf already, or have kids.

:/

but anyways I went to Tennessee over the weekend and that was cool, I just wish I had gotten to go swimming some where.

Meh all in all Summer is pretty much over.

I will be going to the Atlanta Nascar Nationwide Race on the 30th though with my dad so that should be fun I guess.

I still just wish I could find someone to call mine, I'm kinda giving up all hope of finding some one but well idk I guess I just need to try a little harder.

Sunday August 10, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Was losing all my friends.
Was losing them to Childish Fights. < ( My Version) [ Real Version] To Drinking and Driving.
Was losing all my friends, but I got them back.

I am on the mend.
At least now I can say that I am trying.
And I hope you will forget the things I still lack.

Is it in you now,
To bear to hear the truth that you have spoken?
Twisted up by knives,
To make a trap for fools.

Is it in you now,
To watch the things you gave your life to broken?
And stoop and build them up with warn out tools.

( Yeah, Yeah) (Yeah, yeah. Oh.)
(Yeah.)

Nothing gets so bad,
A whisper from your father couldn't fix it.
He whispers like a bridge, it's a river spanned.

Take all that you have,
And turn it into something you would miss if.....
Somebody threw that brick, shattered all your plans.

(Yeah. Yeah.)
(Yeah, yeah. Oh.)
(Yeah.)

( Pick Up)

Time to get the seeds into the cold ground.
It takes a while to grow anything,
Before it's coming to the end, yeah.

Before you put my body in the cold ground,
Take some time to warm it with your hands,
Before it's coming to an end, yeah.

It's coming to an end, yeah.
It's coming to an end, yeah.

( Drop Down)

Do you miss the blend,
Of colors she left in your black and white field?
Do you feel condemned just being there?

I am not your friend.
I am just a man who knows how to feel.

( Screaming)

(I am not your friend.)
(I'm not your lover.)
(I'm not your family.)

(Yeah. Yeah.)
(Yeah, yeah. Oh.)
(Yeah.)

Time to get the seeds into the cold ground.
It takes a while to grow anything,
Before it's coming to the end, yeah.

^

Sowing Season ( Yeah) - Brand New

( Slow Down)

We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shoreline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows

( Pick Up Split Chorus) [Fast] x2
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then it's you I can do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed
Their parents let them shoulder all the blame

( Pick Up)

[Chorus: x2] ( Fast)
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

[Bridge] ( Slow Down)
I lie for.................. only you..............
And I........... lie well...
Hallelu..........

[Chorus: x2] (words from bridge continued in the background)]
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
Today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

^ The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows

Thursday July 31, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

Shit I'm Fucking Sleepy right now. How is everyone?

Hell I'm hanging in there but you know I'm just so Alone right now. I mean I guess I'm not Trying hard enough to find friends and socialize, or no one is really interested in me.

So idrk but yeah I'm just kinda feeling mixed up and blunt about everything. I'm kinda just like fuck this shit, fuck that, oh and fuck you too, You know? It's just one of those days you just wish everyone would die. I'm just kinda pissed and upset.

I can't get over the fact that some one who used to love me so much could just turn there back on me and treat me like a fucking stranger.

any how idk I just kinda give up trying you know? It's like you'll be ok you know you just need to go to this place they'll help you. And I'm like no I'm ok Honest I just want a coke you know? and there like no that's not normal behavior your on drugs.

And I'm like no I'm not on Drugs I'm fine really I'll be ok I just need to talk about it I just need to think about it, and there like no You need help this isn't normal, and I'm like what are you trying to say? are you trying to Institutionalize me? I'm fine really I just want a coke.

And there like no your on drugs your not ok you need help, and I'm like I'll be ok I just need to talk about it get it off my head you know? and there like no your on drugs, and I'm like I'm ok really just give me a fucking coke.

Suicidal Tendencies - Institutionalized ( My own Version)

so yeah I guess I'm just kinda feeling fucked up, I feel like a disgrace like I'm not worthy, I'm useless and no one wants to be with me.

Soooooooooo idk I mean if you like me then let me know cuz I'm not sure what to feel any more.

Wednesday July 23, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

I need you now more like yesterday
The last day I could see you smile.
For the last time turn out the lights
My life on standby.

I fall to pieces, I can't let go
Of all the times I never said goodbye.

Just say that it's over,
It's over and she's gone.

(WAKE UP!) Wake up now it's over...
(WAKE UP!) Just tell me it's ok to die
(WAKE UP!) Wake up now it's over...
(WAKE UP!) Just tell me it's ok to die

Wake up now it's over...
just tell me it's ok to die
Wake up now it's over...
just tell me it's ok to die

My Soul has been torn apart, ripped away by the only threads that where holding it together. My love has stabbed me with a rusty nail. I will never know what it it's like to love some one again.

2 years, 2 Fucking years and now you go and turn on me just like that?

I guess I wasn't good enough.

I wish I had some one to call mine.

I'm sick of this pain, this feeling of emptyness. I'm so alone in this world of nothing.

I'm surrounded by friends and family but yet I'm still Alone.

I just can't take this shit anymore I want some one I can see, Some one I can hold. where ever she may be.

Tuesday June 10, 2014 
| Posted by: BlueBurnsBlack

well here we go I'm gonna get all touchy feely * gropes boobies*

JK but any ways how old are most of you fellers on here?

I know I'm so freaking old right? ( omg he's a pedophile)

NO NO I know the law and don't want to go there.

but yeah I'm 22 and I lurv Me some MCR.

anyone around there 20's ? on here or is everyone mainly Teens?