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Been a few months since I've been on here

on April 1, 2018 - 5:45pm

Hey people! How is everyone?

Some of you may be wondering why I haven't really posted since September 2017 in here (not counting my short "merry Christmas" post from December). It's because I started to realise that I used this website more like a private diary than a public blog and forgot that other people can read what I post. In order to combat that "diary writing" style, I just stopped posting blogs and began writing a proper diary. Actually one of my New Years resolutions for 2018 was to try to write a diary entry daily and so far I've managed to keep to it.

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Merry Christmas!

on December 26, 2017 - 8:07am

I hope everyone has had a good Christmas and if I don't come online for another few months, have a happy new year!

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Warm Fuzzy Feeling

on September 17, 2017 - 4:32pm

I know this is the MCR site but I just thought I'd mention this because this band is in the same scene. I just finished watching teens react to Green Day and I just have a warm fuzzy feeling inside because of many reasons:

1. The teens were all really nice and no one said that they didn't like the music

2. They played songs that Green Day played live when I went to see them live in July and I was just getting random memories of how they performed some songs and of the catchphrases I left the show with.

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Woah, there is activity!

on September 14, 2017 - 12:22pm

Well seen as this place has got more activity, why not I post another blog post. That sentence seemed to make no sense at all. So how is everyone doing now? Good? I just answered the question for you. So let's write about my day!

Today wasn't a bad day. It wasn't like too out of the ordinary either (maybe tomorrow will be... We'll have to see). Got the bus, got to school. Had maths first... Alright lesson I guess.

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What I thought to be an unlikely dream... Was more of a nightmare... And is now just a normal dream

on September 7, 2017 - 4:34pm

Sorry about the weirdly long title. I was planning on writing this earlier on but I ended up going to my friend's house for a bit then when I got home I just didn't have much time. Earlier on the title was just gonna be 'what I thought to be an unlikely dream... Was more of a nightmare' but the situation has kinda funnelled down a bit now so I added the end part.

Right so. If you have read any of my vlogs from like idk 2016 some time, then you'll know that I've have a crush on this guy.

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Sunday April 01, 2018 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

Hey people! How is everyone?

Some of you may be wondering why I haven't really posted since September 2017 in here (not counting my short "merry Christmas" post from December). It's because I started to realise that I used this website more like a private diary than a public blog and forgot that other people can read what I post. In order to combat that "diary writing" style, I just stopped posting blogs and began writing a proper diary. Actually one of my New Years resolutions for 2018 was to try to write a diary entry daily and so far I've managed to keep to it. So now that all that diary writing type information is kept in an actual diary, it leaves me to be able to write these blogs without writing things that I wouldn't want the whole world to see. So, I may start writing blogs on here again. We'll see. I mean I'll have to organise it around my revision for my actual GCSEs that I have this year I'll be honest, the only reason I'm writing a blog now is because my sleep schedule is really off at the moment so I'm not tired at all but it's like 1:30am and there's like nothing for me to do. Everyone's asleep and I'm just awake tapping away at a keyboard on my iPad screen.
So, what's kinda occurred in my life since I kinda stopped writing diary entries, you may want to know. Quite a bit actually. In March, I went to see All Time Low & Creeper live in Manchester and it was amazing! I took so many videos! It's just a shame that most of the videos are horrendously ruined by my squealing style of singing XD. What else has happened? A massive situation with my crush but seen as this isn't my diary, I'm not going to go into full detail. Let's just say that at this point, I hardly even like him anymore and I'm so close to being fully over him (looking forward to the day I am fully over him). What else? We have had three lots of mock exams this year. First lot in November I didn't do too bad on them. Second lot in January there were signs of improvement. Third lot was only the other week so we haven't got any results back yet but I've had a few tip offs from some of my teachers that I have done quite well on at least one of the papers for that subject. I had one teacher (my physics teacher) practically begging me to pick Physics as an A level next year only based on my mock exam result that I still haven't received yet! So yeah, I believe I may have done well in Physics XD.
At the moment we are off for Easter however I still have to go back into school on some days for revision sessions but I don't really mind seen as I won't have as many distractions at school compared to at home.

Hope everyone that celebrated Easter had a great Easter and if you don't celebrate Easter, I hope you just had a good day in general! Everyone deserves to have a good day!

~ Charbarmanning ~
~ Charlotte, Charlottie or Cha Cha Slide ~

/| PS, I'm getting Charbarmanning written on the back of my leavers hoodie when I finish this school year XD |\

Tuesday December 26, 2017 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

I hope everyone has had a good Christmas and if I don't come online for another few months, have a happy new year!

Sunday September 17, 2017 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

I know this is the MCR site but I just thought I'd mention this because this band is in the same scene. I just finished watching teens react to Green Day and I just have a warm fuzzy feeling inside because of many reasons:

1. The teens were all really nice and no one said that they didn't like the music

2. They played songs that Green Day played live when I went to see them live in July and I was just getting random memories of how they performed some songs and of the catchphrases I left the show with. "Are you calling me a cock sucker?" - BJA July 2017. I kept saying in my head "when they played this live they" everytime a new song would come on

3. It reminded me of how old Green Day is and how people from different generations all love the band. At the show, I saw like 9 year olds as well as people who looked to be in their 50s all there to see such an iconic band. I went to see blink 182 in the same week as when I went to see Green Day but the blink show didn't seem to have the same sort of community vibe in the stands as the Green Day show (may of had something to do with the fact that most of the people around us at the blink show were either drunk or just seemed to only know All The Small Things out of the songs on the setlist). My dad has American Idiot and 21st Century Breakdown on CD and he borrowed my Dookie, Nimrod, Warning and Revolution Radio CDs to put them on his phone soon after I'd bought them

4. It reminded me of how i came across Green Day. I mean I've known of Green Day for ages. I knew their name and their music I just never linked the two. I remember when I first really linked Green Day to their music when I started watching Kerrang TV and how most of the songs that they played I already knew because my dad had the song on his phone plus his CDs I mentioned earlier. It was like rediscovering a timecapsule of all the songs my dad has ever sung around the house when I started watching Green Day segments on Kerrang TV XD

Sorry if this just seems to be a bit weirdly written. I kept adding in sentences but that would make the sentence after make no sense. I'm sure if I didn't stop myself now I would've written for hours! Plus it's a school night and I should be sleeping right now. Tomorrow in English we are writing reviews on either films, books or albums and I have picked American Idiot because it's a concept album so there's tons to write about (plus the first concept album that came to my head was The Black Parade but for our previous writing we did in English I chose to write about Gerard Way and he's an idol so I thought that having more MCR would just be a bit too much)

BYE!

~ Charbarmanning ~
~ Charlotte, Charlottie or Cha Cha Slide ~

Thursday September 14, 2017 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

Well seen as this place has got more activity, why not I post another blog post. That sentence seemed to make no sense at all. So how is everyone doing now? Good? I just answered the question for you. So let's write about my day!

Today wasn't a bad day. It wasn't like too out of the ordinary either (maybe tomorrow will be... We'll have to see). Got the bus, got to school. Had maths first... Alright lesson I guess. Next had Biology, we were learning about adaptations but only for half an hour seen as the school decided we needed an assembly to take up the second half and hour as well as all of the first break and ten minutes of the second break. So we were late to break meaning no food! I was starving! I could hear my stomach rumbling throughout the assembly! Oh well! I had only an hour until lunch anyway so I would be fine! English: SURPRISE KEY INDICATOR! A key indicator is like a mini test that gets marked and then all the other key indicators you do after that are linked back to your previous mini test. It was just one question based on a play that we hadn't read this year yet but we had read several times in the past so I could sort of remember what it was about. By sort of I mean I wrote 4 pages when everyone else on my table wrote 2. I WRITE TOO MUCH AND MY HANDWRITING IS SO MESSY!. Lunch was alright. Had pasta and sauce and cheese (all together not separately) and half a cookie because my friends were rushing me to leave. Next was French. I've said this in a previous blog but my French class is tiny. There is only 6 of us! It was more like a mini hangout than a lesson, especially since we were all in the same French class last year too so we all know each other quite well! After French, it was History. Now if you thought my French class was small, there is one less person in our history. (There is 5 of us) (oh and one of those people is my crush and it's really awkward between us because knows I like him because I told him a year and a half ago... And I still kinda like him. Not as much but still). That history lesson wasn't as bad as our first ever history lesson this year. I was chatting with everyone (other than my crush) and we were just making jokes. It was like another mini hangout rather than a lesson. (I'm petty sure my crush is sick of our class. He's the only one that isn't as active on the Facebook group chat. He has to put up with D (II'll call him that) wacking him with a ruler every now and again, he is stuck with me and we kinda hate each other, hate is a strong word, and his only really friend decided to sit on his own table today. I kinda feel bad for him... But then I realise I'm one of the reasons that he probably doesn't like the class and then I feel horrible). I can't write much more (I've kinda run out of things to say). Wasn't much worth writing about but seen as it was active I thought I'd try to write something!

~Charbarmanning~
~Charlotte, Charlottie or Char Char Slide~

Thursday September 07, 2017 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

Sorry about the weirdly long title. I was planning on writing this earlier on but I ended up going to my friend's house for a bit then when I got home I just didn't have much time. Earlier on the title was just gonna be 'what I thought to be an unlikely dream... Was more of a nightmare' but the situation has kinda funnelled down a bit now so I added the end part.

Right so. If you have read any of my vlogs from like idk 2016 some time, then you'll know that I've have a crush on this guy. If you haven't read any of my vlogs from back then or you've just forgotten, I'll give you a short summary in the situation. (BTW I'm in year 11 (ages 15-16 at school at the moment so when I'm referencing to year groups just remember that). So I've liked this guy since Year 7 although we were never in classes together which I wanted to be back then. I told him I liked him in Year 9. He seemed to take it well at first turning me down politely but then it got awkward. He ended up blocking me on Instagram earlier on this year but then unblocking me so it would just seem like I'd accidentally unfollowed him. I mean when he made a new Facebook account he sent me a friend request. Since he blocked me on Instagram, I've been trying to persuade myself that I don't like him. It was working for a bit. I mean the only reason it was working was because I'd forced myself into situations where I wouldn't see him. I still kinda like like him but I'm not stuck on him or anything. If anyone else came along I'd move across. Oh and there's there's the awkwardness where our siblings are in the same classes together and I thought my brother had a crush on his sister at one point. It's so awkward between us. Sorry I talk on for ages.

So I go to school today knowing that I only have to meet one new teacher because most of my teachers this year I've either had in previous years or teachers that I have already met since Wednesday. Anyway, my timetable had Maths, Biology, English, French and History on for today (by today I mean Thursday even though it's 0:13 am on Friday). Maths was alright. Nice teacher, nice seating plan. Biology again nice teacher, alright seating plan. English the same. French, we have a tiny class. There's 6 of us. One guy, 5 girls. That will be a nice and peaceful lesson for the week. I managed to warn my teacher of his next class because he was teaching my brother's class next XD. Finally, history. A class that I only knew two people who were doing it apart from me and I didn't know the teacher. I was the first person there because I was only upstairs so it didn't take too long to get to the class. Guess who comes and stands next to me. My crush of course. Not too close, like a person's width away. Anyway, I thought he was waiting for another class but we both were just looking straight forward at the wall in front. Not talking, not looking at each other but we could both feel this sense of awkwardness. Some others came for the class but not many. One went to talk to my crush and the others came to talk to me. When the teacher came to get us, me and four people walked into the class. Yeah my crush was one. Yeah there are 5 of us in our history class. The teacher moved two tables together to fit use all onto one big table in the centre of the room. I sit not at the end of the table but one seat down. He sits at the opposite side of the table but on the end seat. The two people talking to me came and sat on my side and the guy talking to my crush went and sat on his side. The teacher went and sat down at the other end of the table. Oh I forgot to mention that I'm the only girl in that class... And that I have history EVERY... SINGLE.., DAY... FOR... THE... REST... OF... THE... YEAR... Okay by the en of the year it may not be as awkward but for the next month or so, it will be AWKWARD! I have not clue if the rest of our class know why we were the only two in the class not to speak to each other and why when the teacher asked if we were all friends we both made a weird meh type of face. I have no idea how to explain that type of facial emotion without using the word meh. I avoided eye contact with him, I avoided looking at him unless the teacher had asked him a question because that would just make the whole situation worse. Let's just hope we never have to sit next to each other...

Now you may be wondering why the title implies that things are kinda alright now... Well someone made a Facebook group chat for the 5 of use and I'm hoping that will kinda make us either hate each other's guts (because D & JB just love to spam history memes) or become closer I mean we have to stand each other for an hour a day (Two hours on Tuesday's) but I'm sure that we'll work something out. I mean we have all already agreed (and by all I mean me, JB and JP, not my crush or D) to sit on the otherside of the table to D just because we all like to pick on him as a joke.

Let's see how this year ends up going!
~ Charbarmanning ~
~ Charlotte, Charlottie, or Char Char Slide ~
/| I only realised today that I've been using a mixture of Cha Cha Slide and Char Char Slide so I'm just going to swap them out everytime I post something new! |\

Monday September 04, 2017 
| Posted by: Charbarmanning

I like to edit the "about me section" usually a year or so after first creating it. I read that my about me section on here says 'I try to post here daily' or something along the lines of that. Lol no. I've just edited my about me section on talk.mcrmy.com too and added in some new bits and edited some out of date bits. It's cringeworthy but funny sometimes but oh well.

I start school again on Wednesday... Yay (sarcasm). Because UK secondary schools end at Year 11 (which is ages 15-16), it's my last year so it will be: Stressful, hard, routine, pressure. GREAT (sarcasm). Then the law says you have to stay in education until you're 18 so I'll probably going to the school's sixth form anyway so I won't fully be leaving my secondary school because it has a sixth form connected to it. At least the first two weeks are usually laid back introduction days. I pretty much know I'll have one friend in each class seen as one of my friends picked one of the same options as me and my other option only my friends have picked it so I'm fine. I don't fully know about my other lessons (I'm worried I'll be split from my friends in PE because it's always really random) but I don't mind though because I actually want to work in Maths, Science and English and not just talk the whole lesson.

Can't really think of much to say on here except who's online these days? I've seen a decline in the amount of posts. I mean it's always been empty since I started when I logged in here for the first time in 2015 (except from the time when a huge burst of people came in January or February 2016 because the news section posted a new post saying the site was fixed again even though it had been fine the whole time I'd been using it. Oh and when the whole MCRX situation when on in July 2016 another burst of fans came on to share their thoughts)

Hope everyone is fine
~ Charbarmanning ~
~ Charlotte, Charlottie, or Cha Cha Slide ~
/| No one calls me by these nicknames anymore but I still add them at the bottom of my posts XD. I think my most used nickname these days is Charbarmanning or Chazza |\